Doubting myself

I think I screwed up my Chinese paper 1. I'm pretty bad at writing story compositions, especially Chinese ones. My grasp of the Chinese language is rudimentary, though I'm proud to say that I never speak Chinese inaccurately. I just hope I'll do better than I think I did. That's not saying anything, though. Last night I didnt sleep well. I woke up quite a few times because of the goddamned phone call of my uncle's friend in china, because my uncle suddenly got a heart attack there. Even now my 2 aunts are preparing to fly over to join him in case. But it really gets my goat that he can't call the handphone instead. At least the sound wouldn't reverberate throughout the house. Today is so not a good day..
I hate myself..
I'm still thinking about the envyxoc story.. Donno how I'll write it. Maybe I'll just go episode by episode. And I'll make her a shota after all, one who is kinda well known because pictures of him have been used as an incentive to lure young women into the military and some men too, sort of like Roy mustang's photos.. And it'll be funny! Haha. Perhaps I'll have 'him' kidnapped by envy during the burning library incident. Yeah. She overslept in the library and tried to fight them, but then scar appeared, everything got messed up so she tried to retreat after scar injured her quite severely, although she regenerated. Envy saw that so he kidnapped her. Fire is the antithesis of a fallen so she is probably weakened. Thats when envy picks her up.
But I've already started encountering problems at chapter 1. Should I have her waking up from a dream, then getting a mission from Roy mustang, or should I have her wake up while on a journey to reole, thus immediately launching into the action? I feel I might have to rewatch the show again.. But I think a shota would be kinda interesting. She could look 13, but claim she was 15, yet she's really an 18-year-old girl..